When Jason met Kaley

When Jason met Kaley, she was naive and innocent. Jason was a charmer. It didn't take long for Kaley to unconsciously notice him when he walked into the room. Easily and quickly friends, they got along without much effort. But Kaley was preoccupied - she had a serious boyfriend, who very quickly turned into a not-so-serious fiance. But the damage was done. By the time Kaley was a broken-hearted damsel, Jason had his guard up. Paths irreversibly tangled, they continued forward - awkwardly working side by side. Kaley always held a soft spot in her heart for Jason. Her heart jumped when he looked at her with those beautiful blue eyes and smiled. Anytime he called - to hang out, if he needed a favor, anything - she would do it. No questions asked. Kaley did everything in her power to get him to notice her, to smile, to laugh, to make him jealous. It rarely worked, but she didn't falter. There was just something about him that drew her in. It didn't matter that he never wanted her. It didn't matter that she didn't actually want him to be hers. She just needed his presense.

Things changed. Jason got a taste of power, and continued to charm people to get more. Everyone liked him, and he got everything he wanted. Not just from Kaley. Kaley noticed his sudden arrogance, noticed the taste of dust in her mouth. Wait. What about me? I thought I got you this far...

Jason ignored Kaley more, so she pined after him more. He'd turn around and need a favor, and she'd jump to it. But the cycle of ignorance and favors got worse. Now she's angry. She's sick of being his doormat. She's figured out that she's used and abused. She sees through his 'nice guy' facade. There is rarely a thank-you to go along with the favor - let alone a favor returned. Anything that inconveniences Jason is out of the question. There is never a text or a phone call unless he's got a favor. But what can she do? He doesn't need her. She needs him! She feels bad refusing him. Kaley mutters and rants, she practices what she wants to say to him. But she loses her nerve the second he walks into the room. She still has a soft spot for him and those beautiful blue eyes...

Something New and Exciting

It would seem there are quite a few of us struggling with writers block. I noticed that I hadn't blogged in a few days, and I felt the need for an update. However, I don't know what to write on either!! Even browsing a few of your blogs I didn't pick up any ideas in particular. I don't even do anything overly exciting to tell you what I've been up to. :( For example... Since I last blogged I have:
- been to work
- taught adorable children how to swim
- completed some
- incompleted others
- seen Transformers 2 (for the second time) in IMAX (for the first time)
- cleaned my room,
- let it get messy again
- paid bills
- got depressed at my lack of spending cash
- cheered up at the thought of getting paid on Friday
- got depressed at my debt from travelling such that getting paid does not result in spending cash
- browsed pictures from Europe and cheered up again
- gone shopping anyways
- had a weiner roast with Colette
- started planning "Kyra & Colette in Europe - take 2"
- slept in
- stayed up late
- watched most of the first season of The Mentalist (strongly recommend it)
- added to and counted up my movie collection (I'm at 80 - averaging each at $20 that would be $1600 worth of movies - wow)
- baked cookies
- baked cookies again
- got a swimsuit sunburn
- read the Twilight saga for the second time
- reminded myself why I dislike the lane pool at work so much (pool chemistry is frustrating sometimes...most of the time...always)
- got the oil changed in my car
- went camping at a friends cabin
- went camping with the fam

etc....

Tonight I'm going to see The Proposal with my Mom. We are in much need of a Mother/Daughter date. I'm no longer a little kid (even if my outward appearance deceives you), and we need time to work on being friends instead of just parent & child. I've wanted to see this movie for a while, but since all the other movies I want to see I've already made plans to see with friends, this one is for my Mom. I guess that's all I really do each week - work, sleep, and go see movies with friends. It's the easiest thing to do when you want to hang out - no matter how different your work schedules are, usually there is a late enough - or early enough - show playing somewhere in Edmonton. However, I seriously need something spontaneous to do. Something completely random that I can go camera happy with and just have a grand ol' time.

Relationships

Before anyone gets any ideas here, let me make something very clear. I like being single. I do not want a boyfriend right now. I just have a vicious cycle of emotions that I don't really know what to do with. Maybe its just my lack of experience with, well, being single. You see, two of my closest friends are in serious relationships. I am genuinely happy for them, and am glad they've both found someone that they will most likely marry and spend the rest of their lives with. But I'm jealous. Like I said earlier, I don't want a boyfriend. I want to be single right now. The vicious cycle part lies exactly there. I'm jealous, which to me means that I'm not happy with me yet. So I can't go looking for a relationship until I don't feel the need to be jealous anymore. But I miss the feeling of having a guy desire you. Someone who calls you, texts you, seeks to spend time with you. The other problem with having friends in serious relationships, is that they don't have time for you anymore. You maybe get to see them once in a blue moon between jobs, family time, and boyfriend time. I'm single, so I have all the time in the world. Sort of. I have a job and I have my family and that eats up alot of time. I'm grateful for my other single friends, they are the ones I'm close to now. But see my dilemma? I want to see these girls, and just do girl stuff. They don't have the time. Friendships, just like any other relationship, need to be two way. I hate being the one to always call, text, facebok, etc. trying to make plans. But if I don't, nothing happens. And then we start at the beginning again. Jealousy, frustration, and then back to my single friends (whom I love dearly) who have the time.

Canada Day!

Happy Canada Day! Well I suppose looking at the clock now, Canada Day was technically yesterday. Happy Canada Day nonetheless. I certainly hope you got the chance to enjoy some Canada Day festivities - such as a parade - or my personal favorite - FIREWORKS! Oh how I love fireworks. I get totally mesmerized watching fireworks. All those pretty colors and flashing lights. Ahhh. I had to work tonight, but conveniently, the Leduc fireworks are situated in the baseball diamonds right next to the Rec Center where I work. Second convenience: I am a pool supervisor, I have the key to the roof. Best seats in the house, guaranteed. All day we heard rumors of a fabulously huge fireworks (sing.) 16 1/2, whatever that means. Biggest one in Canada, never before used in Canada. Straight from China. I had originally thought it would be in Edmonton, but it was in the Leduc Rep, and everyone was convinced it would be in Leduc. So sweet! Best seats in the house, for the best fireworks show in Canada. NOT. Unless we got ourselves so hyped up that we missed it, there were no special fireworks. Just the same ones we see every year. Normally I wouldn't object - like I said, I love fireworks! But they told me there would be a fireworks known as the nuke. I'm so disappointed! Maybe the other disappointment is due to Disneyland fireworks. Once you've seen those, well, nothing ever compares. Road trip anyone?